We are leaving the dark times behind us. Instead of Christmas flowers I have given myself a present that gives hope that the spring soon will arrive.
Christmas is a very special time of the year. I both love and hate it at the same time. I have no brothers and sisters and my family has therefore always been rather small. We have many very good friends but just at Christmas you are supposed to be with family and not with friends. Here in Sweden the ideal picture of a happy Christmas is to have a big gathering with a lot of relatives. Since I always have been a part of a small family I have a longing for that kind of celebration even if I deep inside know that those big meetings, with relatives you seldom see, can be all but happy meetings. But still I have that picture about what it should be in my head and at Christmas I can therefore feel a bit sad. The sadness also comes from the fact that there are relatives that no longer are with us at Christmas such as my father and my mother-in-law. In Denmark they have an expression for this “Julesorg”. I think it is a nice word.
With this said you can get the impression that it has been a bad Christmas and that it not the case. We have eaten what you should eat at Christmas, had more time than usual for dogs and horses, had to much sweets and chocolate and had time to read some books. So it has been a good time.